1. He behaved as if he loved me but had never made it official so how sure was I that he wasn't seeing other girls?
2. He had never really told me if he ended things with the 2-week girl.
3. His friend Mr.P had disrespected me, saying I'd make a bad mother and he supported him!!
About number three, what happened was that a friend of his died. Actually,his high school deskmate in an all-boys school and I figured that I should be there for him through that trying time. Mr.X was pretty close with Mr.P and at a certain time we were to meet at Caprice Fries and Mr.P was there and they were planning the funeral and all. Mr.P liked hanging out at Caprice upstairs most of the time (all those fries explain his... erm... roundness and tumbo pack) and his mother had been my high school teacher though I was not in her class so we'd become friends via facebook but had never really met in person. I thought it'd help if Mr.X had my company because when people are around me they're always laughing and having a good time for I am not afraid to cook stupidity and I do it to the fullest. They even dared me to stand up in the middle of the restaurant, raise my hands up and say "Murang'a tuko pamoja!" just to prove I wasn't kidding which I did pap!The deskmate had killed himself by jumping off a tree at his home in Murang'a so clearly he had been under a lot of stress. For someone to resort to suicide, and in the most painful manner, he must have really weighed all his options and seen no other way out. I offered to go to the funeral with him and I was right, my company did help. Helped both of us get closer... *naughty laugh* At the time I saw it as doing a good deed and I thought he did too before he turned everything around and made everything I'd done for him seem like the worst thing a human being could do. Mr.X had told me that no girl had ever done for him the things I'd done for him.that he was happy with where we were so I shouldn't feel insecure. He just wanted us to take things slow. twas pure bliss! at least 4 him... I needed something more...solid. But... Mr.P was,is bad influence on Mr.X, drinking, smoking, wasting his life away and wanting to take others along with him. No wonder we got into an accident from Murang'a. Mr.P,the driver was high and had been over speeding and I came to see for myself why my mother did not want me to attend that funeral. I got to see what boys did at those funerals(I was the only girl in the vehicle with them), drinking in the name of the departed with no shame whatsoever. I went against my own mother just to be by Mr.X's side and what does he do when we get into a little disagreement? He asks me "What the fwuck were u thinking???" But before that as his en route of ignoring me as usual I try to talk to Mr.P so as to understand Mr.X. Worst mistake!it's like giving solid food to a 1-day old baby... gugugaga... gag!
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